okay, you all might think im just a slacker and i dont do any work. and while this may be true frequently, you must be sure to not always jump to unnecessary conclusions. because, for example, today, i am procrastinating for a reason. i have three days to construct 40 notecards about how war doesnt solve any problems. and for those of you that arent good at math, 40 divided by three results in an awkward and annoying number. buttttt, 40 divided by 2 is a nice number: twenty. so. i shall do my notecards tomorrow, therefore resulting in i will do twenty tomorrow and twenty on wednesday andddd, problem solved! nice easy number! so see, its not really procrastinating, its problem solving! see?! how smart am i.
on another and slightly more interesting note, we only have SEVENTEEN days of school left! SEVENTEEN. that is a number that you can count to in a very short amount of time watch onetwothreefourfivesixseveneightnineteneleventwelvethirteenfourteenfifteensixteenSEVENTEENSCHOOLS OVER see how short that was?! so, even though teachers are being cruel and unusual and giving us like three months' worth of work in our final three weeks, however bad it all may seem now, just know that in seventeen short short short days, it will all be over. well, twenty-four real days. but seventeen days of going there and doing crap. so relax yoselves. we're almost there.
okay. order of business numero tres. sadie hawkinssssssss. as much as i really really want to go, unfortunately there is really no one that i even want to ask. besides, you know. and i told jennifer that i was gonna be like hey! hey you! wanna go to sadie hawkins with me? just in the middle of the hallway, but really, is that going to happen? lets be real here. probably not. which is the sad truth of my life. i mean, i would do it. i would. if i even remotely talked to him. if it was that mormon kid that hangs out with chad, whom i've said a small amount of words to, then i would do it. i mean, if it was that situation. but no. chad obviously doesnt talk to this kid when im around for a reason, therefore resulting in NO OPPORTUNITIES. *frustration* cuz if i had like any opportunity at all i would do it. if it wasnt the baseball season and he like rode the bus oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh oh gosh. you know, the baseball season ends. before sadie hawkins. meaning, there will be, ahem, people, ahem, ON THE BUS. so what if, i went on said bus and asked said people to sadie hawkins. WHAT IF. would i be able to? no. i was shaking last time when all i had to do was casually sit with him. but what if i just sucked it up and was like hey can i sit with you and then awkwardly sat there and then was like 'heydoyouwannagotosadiehawkinswithme? i know i dont really know you, but...' and hope he is a spontaneous lets-go-to-a-dance-with-this-random-crazy-chick-on-the-bus kinda person? which i doubt. but honestly? who can say no. unless theyre absolutely repulsive or extremely annoying which i hope im not. you cant just be like no. can you? unless, you dont know the person and have never uttered a word to them except random conversations about band and cymbals and ketchup dispensers. then maybe you could. other opportunities: band rehearsals if we have one during sixth hour. band concert next week. (then again, in that situation there would be other people in close proximity that could hear my potential failure and proceeding utter embarassment. come to think of it, what if he does say no? im spending all this time freaking out about asking him even though i dont even know him, when what if i get all that courage and actually ask him and then he said no? what would i feel like? crap. i seriously think i would cry. like not even joking. i would. later, anyway. and what would i even say? i'd be like, 'oh, okay...that makes sense...since i dont even know you...' and he'd be like uh, yeah. this girl is even more of a freak than i thought. plus, there goes all other chances of, anything pretty much, since from then on im the random freshman that asked him to sadie hawkins. for the next two years. and no chance. dude. this is a bigger risk than i ever even anticipated.) what if i like, gave him a note with the url to this blog? and then he'd go on here and read the first two paragraphs and be like what the heck but then he'd read this paragraph and get it and then he would understand and fall madly in love with me (okay, this is all theoretical okay) and comment and be like yeah sure i'll go. all nonchalant-like. i dunno. this is obviously a lot of rambling, but i really have never liked anyone this long without it going anywhere (positive or negative) and i really need to just do something about it and this dance deal is pretty much my last chance this year and if i dont do something then i'll like him all summer long and it will be boring and pointless (like usual) and next year will be exactly the same. exactly. the same. anyway. i think i'll be done. tell me what to do, cuz decisions are obviously not my strength. well, bye.
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ok i think you should do it cause like you said the worst he can say is no. and he's not gonna be like bitch no (in which case you would slap him). if anything he would probably be like no i'm not going to the dance. plus i don't think you're going to have classes with him next year so you'll know him the same amount so you might as well see what happens this year instead of going crazy and asking next year. plus if he does say no then you can just be like ok cool and pretend it didn't happen or change the subject. then when we get off the bus you can cry. but he could say yes and then you could be like great do you want to exchange numbers? and then cha bam you gots a date. kinda. that is my opinion. oh and the procrastinating thing. that's just stupid.
hahahahahaha okay. well you convinced me. even though, i was thinking, and i came to these conclusions:
1. the small and pitiful conversations that i have had with him, if memorable at all, have probably left a less than satisfactory impression on him.
2. the things that i have said near or around him are of questionable normalcy and therefore have probably confirmed his suspicions that i am a total weirdo.
3. i dont even know him.
4. despite what my overactive optimistic mind has led me to believe, the chances of him saying no are actually much higher than him saying yes.
5. if and when he does say no, i will probably be devastated.
actually, you know. the fact that i dont think things through before i do them is probably a good thing. because right now, this is me thinking things through. i would never get anything done. at all. because im crazy overanalyzing this. i should just hope i get the opportunity and then be my normal self and just do it if i feel like it. which i probably wont cuz i'll chicken out. oh look. back to the beginning.
NO. you convinced me. just dont let me talk myself out of it like i just did. and yeah youre totally right he so wud be like uh no sorry i dont do dances. like watch that happen. that totally would happen to me. i swear. cuz then i wud go crazy knowing that if it wasnt a dance or something then he probably wouldve gone and it wouldve been one of those SO CLOSE things. yeah youre right. if i dont do this now i will go crazy next year. just like this year. no. imma ask him. its time to make another plan, jennifer. gosh that sounds creepy. whatever. thats what we are. creepy. anyway. planning time. chabam. i like that. i used to say that. anyway. im gonna gets myself a date. (kinda)
by the way. this asking guys thing is for the birds. is this what guys do every time theres a dance? probably not theyre prolly like that chicks hot imma ask her. and then they ask her and she says yes and the guys high five each other and say score. which is why, the guys ask the girls. not the other way around. what a joke. who thought of this.
I had to ask for homecoming (kinda) it sucks. Hey, when you do this I need to watch. Because it will be interresting. And I need a break from the DRAMA that plauges me.
well, im not doing it so problem solved. i am so pathetic.
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