i suck at everything

things i suck at:
1. school because everything used to be easy for me but now that i actually have to try i have zero motivation and so my grades are bad
2. english because that was the one subject i was supposed to be good at but the grades on the essays that we got back were mediocre which was really frustrating because usually i get the best grades on english stuff because thats the one thing im good at but lots of people got better scores than me even though i worked really hard so yeah apparently i suck.
3. band because all i ever play is the frickin piano part.
4. piano because our piano at home doesnt work so i never practice at home so i have to practice at school but i dont always get a chance and so i get worse and i've been playing my recital piece since last june and it's still not good. meaning, i suck
5. chemistry because it's horrible and i hate it and i just don't even want to try anymore but i have an f and so i have to but i dont understand anything and i hate coming in early which i have to do every day
6. softball because apparently i have a sidearm so i have to completely relearn how to throw pretty much which affects everything i do in practice causing me to suck.
7. math because i hate it and dont want to try
8. french because it's easy and yet for some reason i still have a b, obviously because i suck.
9. memorizing the capitals of all the countries in the world because i keep practicing and i still dont get the ones ive practiced over and over.
10. everything because i literally get home and climb into bed and stay there all night
11. being prepared for softball because i never am
12. reading because i cant concentrate
13. homework because i cant concentrate
14. everything because i cant concentrate and my mind always wanders, specifically to Will. it's an issue.

things i'm good at:
1. making pizza








conclusion: ditch everything, work at pizzaioli the rest of my life.



yup.