okay i'm supposed to be doing an ap chem lab right now but it's halloween and also i keep looking at it and i don't understand it and just just....my brain gets all fuzzy when i try to do it! i can't do it! i'm tired and tomorrow is november which is officially cold and wintery. i am now going to vent, in terms of person 1 and person 2. you can figure out for yourself who they are.
okay so i keep thinking i like person two and then when i'm like hanging out with person two then i do like him. but every time i see person one i get all...whateverish and plus i dont want to give up on liking him but person two is way more realistic and i like the idea of us as a couple but then sometimes im like nahh i dont really like you but then other times im like hmm maybe i do. and obviously nothings gonna happen with person one. but i just cant stop liking him. okay, i know how retarded i sound. cuz you're gonna be like do you know how retarded you sound and the answer is yes, yes i do know how retarded i sound. but i'll continue cuz i am conflicted. actually i dont really have anything else to say. plus i always was telling people that i didnt like person two and then now i do ish kinda and theyre gonna be like ooooh and i'm gonna be like shut yer mouth. but you have no idea how much i actually like person one. like seriously you have no idea. it's the worst thing in the world. it's like that 'the one that got away' thing, you know? like i dont want to stop liking him because then i'll be like what woulda happened....but at the same time its going nowhere and therefore i have to be more realistic. you know, dale liked me for like two and a half years. and he doesnt like me anymore and is perfectly happy dating other people. like, how did he do that? actually i know how he did that, it was because he knew for a fact that i didnt like him, which i dont know for a fact about person one which is the thing that keeps me stuck on him. plus its weird to like person two! like i'm like, whoa, i like him? like, what? that's so weird! but then i do. aghasdflkajsl;dfih;aligha;lksdhf;lakhsd;gilasdflhasdf.
okay i really have to do this lab. i keep going, okay i'm gonna do it now, but then i look at it and the page is all blank and ITS JUST TAUNTING ME. i have to do it by second hour tomorrow. when else am i gonna do it? no other time. so i have to do it now. but i cant. ohmygosh i seriously have issues. like read this frickin post. it's just all my problems. well, not all of them. but all of this post is me complaining about my problems. how sad. how utterly sad. oh well. that's basically what this is for. it's like a public diary where people can comment on my many problems and thoughts. yeah. nothing can go wrong with this idea. good thing barely anyone knows about this.
by the way i went to wills party and his parents are really nice. plus his house is nice wow i sound creepy but seriously all those victoria people have really nice houses and then everywhere else just looks like a frickin dump. actually my house is a dump anyway but i like it because it's a cozy dump. wow what the frick am i talking about. this is like my dbq for history...i wrote it in first hour last week and then i reread it today and i was like what am i talking about in this essay? i think i mighta been at least a third asleep if not half asleep. it's ten thirty and i still have to take a shower and then go to bed and most likely i will read before bed because i have so self control and i wont get to bed til like 12 and then i'll get up at like 6:45 tomorrow and want to die like usual. and tomorrows only tuesday. on the bright side, only 16 more school days until thanksgiving break. then after that is black friday, which i forgot about. my paycheck was only $108 this week. that's actually the lowest it's ever been besides the very first time but that's because i started in the middle of the pay period so it was only $102 but not a full two weeks. anyway. i need to sleep now or tomorrow will suck. actually it'll suck anyway. bye.
by the way, RIP Lily and James and Deathly Hallows Part 2 comes out in 11 days! I tweeted about lily james, but being a retard, i said 20 years when it was supposed to be thirty. fail.
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FREAK. I WANT A REAL COMMENT.
hey its swedn which is almost sweden
Well sorrrrrrrrrrrrrrry. I've been commenting on some of your 2009 posts cuz i've been bored. I was a freak. Oh well! Ummmm... do your homework... and try to talk to person 1... and idk about person 2, that's and awkward deal.
*an awkward deal.
DAPTOMON (it means nothing but sounded cool)
i think if person 2 knew you liked him he would like you again cause i think he stopped cause people were telling him you didn't like him. and person 1 i think it's safe to assume he definitely doesn't like you. just sayin.
NO. NOT SAFE TO ASSUME. and wait who told him i didnt like him?!
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