Stress Level 43745692

So much stress, just need Hell Week to come so that it can be over. Because it's going to be hell. Which is why I named it Hell Week, obviously. Anyway, to counteract the bad vibes I'm just gonna list good things. Because good things make you happy.

o children by nick cave. it's the song from hp7 pt 1 that harry and hermione dance to, it's awesome.
flowers
the minneapolis institute of art
art in general
old things
garage sales
finding good stuff at garage sales
trips
bonfires
inside jokes
road trips
day trips
duluth
lake superior
we're all getting our licenses
freedom
independence
twitter
gardens
apple orchards
strawberry fields
the beatles
good music
classical music
pianos
lebanon
receiving text messages
retweets
not doing anything but miraculously managing to look good
having nothing to do. nothing.
softball games
hot dogs
passing grades
when things are easy
mamma mia
islands
adventures
exploring
forests
creeks
taking off your shoes and wading
canoeing
harry potter
happiness
being tan
summer
sunsets
bouquets
new music on your ipod
chocolate
ice cream cones
boating
tubing
newly painted nails
perfectly tuned pianos
gaining a twitter follower
comfortable clothes that still look good
nighttime
startripping
stargazing
summer nights
drive-ins, even though i've never been to one, i want to
diners
when movies that you like are miraculously on tv
children
being a child
being a teenager
shorts
not being self conscious
friends
lots of friends
friend groups
people
people that you like that like you aka FRIENDS
doing something because you like it, not because you feel like you have to
reaching your goals!
not thinking about the future because its scary
laying on the trampoline
comtemplating life in the shower
jewelry
the beach
when you're self confident (doesnt happen often but the times that it does are good)
when the first clothes that you try on fit
travelling alone
being able to do things





imma go contemplate life in the shower now. maybe paint my nails too, if there's time.

i suck at everything

things i suck at:
1. school because everything used to be easy for me but now that i actually have to try i have zero motivation and so my grades are bad
2. english because that was the one subject i was supposed to be good at but the grades on the essays that we got back were mediocre which was really frustrating because usually i get the best grades on english stuff because thats the one thing im good at but lots of people got better scores than me even though i worked really hard so yeah apparently i suck.
3. band because all i ever play is the frickin piano part.
4. piano because our piano at home doesnt work so i never practice at home so i have to practice at school but i dont always get a chance and so i get worse and i've been playing my recital piece since last june and it's still not good. meaning, i suck
5. chemistry because it's horrible and i hate it and i just don't even want to try anymore but i have an f and so i have to but i dont understand anything and i hate coming in early which i have to do every day
6. softball because apparently i have a sidearm so i have to completely relearn how to throw pretty much which affects everything i do in practice causing me to suck.
7. math because i hate it and dont want to try
8. french because it's easy and yet for some reason i still have a b, obviously because i suck.
9. memorizing the capitals of all the countries in the world because i keep practicing and i still dont get the ones ive practiced over and over.
10. everything because i literally get home and climb into bed and stay there all night
11. being prepared for softball because i never am
12. reading because i cant concentrate
13. homework because i cant concentrate
14. everything because i cant concentrate and my mind always wanders, specifically to Will. it's an issue.

things i'm good at:
1. making pizza








conclusion: ditch everything, work at pizzaioli the rest of my life.



yup.